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--- name: a-parent type: role / organism status: running version: varies released: approximately nine months after conception maintainer: no one volunteers for this dependencies: - child (required) - sleep (deprecated) - former self (archived) - patience - someone who once did this for you license: irrevocable tags: - biological - recursive - love - infrastructure - unglamorous slug: a-parent ---
A person who agreed to nothing specific and everything permanent.
A body produces, adopts, or simply shows up for a child. The role initializes instantly. No loading screen. No manual ships with the hardware.
After that: repetition, warmth, correction, repetition. The system runs mostly in the background. Visible at meals, at 2am, at the moment something breaks. Invisible in the long years when nothing dramatic happens, which is most of them.
The output is slow. Decades slow. You rarely see the compile finish.
attachment_style: inherited_then_chosen
voice_volume: context_dependent
default_response_to_crying: presence
regret_buffer: always_open
distance_tolerance: low_but_adjustable
Does it get easier? The weight stays. The arms get stronger.
What do they actually want? To be seen as a person, not only as a function. The same thing the child wants. This is the root loop neither notices.
Is love enough? No. Also yes. The question is poorly formed.
When does it end? It does not end. It changes shape. It becomes a phone call, a recipe passed down, a way of standing in a doorway.
v0.0: terror and wonder, no gap between themv1.0: the child walks. the parent lets go of the hand. briefly.v4.x: arguments about everything. love traveling in disguisev12.0: something softens. something is finally said.vN: a memory, pressed flat. someone else carries it forward.